Last week I went out and bought clothes! Lots of clothes! I never do this. I normally just struggle through my closet, sometimes with literal tears in my eyes, as I try to put something presentable together to get through whatever thing I have to get through that day.
I’m a stay-at-home mom! My kids need clothes since they outgrow them so fast. My husband needs clothes since he does have to show up to the office every day. Me? Clothes are a waste on a mom who cleans, conducts homeschool science experiments, and wipes up baby poop all day. So I put off the buying of clothes. Then Sunday rolls around I have to go to church and there is sincerely nothing presentable in my closet. I cry, I pull out old maternity clothes and disguise them with a jacket, and out the door I go.
It surely sounds ridiculous but I just didn’t feel worthy of new clothes. I don’t bring home much bacon so I don’t get the nice things. Please tell me I’m not alone in this! Please tell me other women feel this way!
Where do I get this idea? Well honestly from the world in many ways. It wasn’t long ago I sat amongst a group of people at a party. One mom mentioned she had just bought something or other nice for herself. Her husband was nearby and there was a joke about the mom spending all of the money. The room erupted into a chorus of… BUT SHE WORKS! SHE CAN SPEND MONEY ON HERSELF! I was the lone stay-at-home mommy in the room. I kept silent but the message was clear. I’m not worthy.
That isn’t the truth, however. The truth is something I often forget. The enemy would love for me to see myself as less than valuable. My worth to my husband and my family is not defined by how much money I make and I’m a fool for letting myself think this way. So I’m writing this blog post to remind myself of this and to maybe even help some of you sometimes.
Let’s look at scripture…
He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD.
Houses and wealth are inherited from parents, but a prudent wife is from the LORD.
“There are three things that are too amazing for me, four that I do not understand: the way of an eagle in the sky, the way of a snake on a rock, the way of a ship on the high seas, and the way of a man with a maiden.
A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
I like the last one the most….. A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
So to my dear husband, the next time I tell you I’m just a stay-at-home mom and clothes or a haircut are a not worth it. Please remind me!